Nothing.

All I ever wanted was to be loved,
to be cherished and respected.
To be adored by my only one,
not to be lost and rejected.
To have the wedding of fairy tales
to the man of my dreams.
To live a life of laughter and love
without nightmares or screams.

I thought you were him,
I really thought it was you.
How could you leave us battered and bruised with all that we have given you?

When did you stop loving us?
When was it okay?
How could you take it out on us and try and walk away?

I sit here watching others now
love each other so beautifully.
Look what we got for giving you our hearts completely?

When did you stop caring?  Stop Loving?
Stop thinking about us kindly?
When do we get to love like that again without hurting so badly?

I was your best friend and he is your son.
But you really do value your money and power over all of it,
YOU value YOURSELF more than anyone.

But, one day, in my heart of hearts I know God will let it be...
that you'll realize what you gave up in us and what has made your life so empty.
And on your death-bed you'll ask us to give you our hands,
and to forgive you, to love you and to think of you as a good man.
And we'll cry and my heart will weep as it does for you now,
and I'll tell you "it's all better" someway, somehow.

Because, in the end, all I ever wanted for us was to be loved by you,
to have you cherish us, respect us and adore all that we do. 
And why, oh why you couldn't do that is something that God will only know.
And your life will reflect that you've reaped what you've sewed.

I sat there that day... in my TRUTH.
I sat there alone... with no proof.
The judge ordered him right and I stood by,
watching as people we know did lie.
My baby's voice was not heard by one.
The father did not even acknowledge his own son.
I sat there that day... to face them ALL.
I sat there alone... with none to call.
A judge will eventually hear my baby's voice,
and TRUTH will prevail without a father's choice.
I will sit there again one day... in pure LOVE.
And this time I will not be alone... and GOD will shine from above!

Moments happen in life...
GREAT moments...
SAD moments...
Moments that take your breath away...
and moments that change your ENTIRE WORLD.

This Friday, January 18th is one of those moments.

I ask for all the WISDOM in the world to break through in this moment...
I prey for all the TRUTH in the world to shine true in this moment...
I ache in my heart for GOD to allow PEACE and SAFETY to prevail in this moment...
I assure that the FUTURE of many will be altered FOREVER in this moment.

This Friday, January 18th at 11am in the Justice Center, please FOCUS positive, loving intensions dear GAIA so that we may live in GOD's beauty and grace forever more!

A short introduction of my journey to becoming the EcoDIVA!

Money makes the world go round...
the world go round...
the world go round.

Money makes the world go round...
Now arn't you tired of SPINNIN?!!

greenscenetv.com is launching on April 14th!  Yeehaawww!

I would like to introduce you to our EJ (Eco Jockey) "Green Team" on greenscenetv.com...

Eric, Kellie, Katie and I are your Edu-tainers of everything Green and beyond!

I was given an AMAZING childhood as a farm-raised child!

My teacher was NATURE and she let me run wild!

We lived off of the creations we hand-reaped,

And bare-back, shoeless play was how my mind shaped!

But when I had to leave my outside world at end of day,

Inside, reading his words is how my mind would play.

He was my teacher, my confidant, my friend explore,

In his zany worlds of nonsense I will ponder forever more!

For now in my motherhood did I ever expect to see?

Words that transcend our generations of humanity!

Especially from a childhood book, my favorite of all time,

That makes our everyday experiences seem innocently sublime.

That one simple man who will always be my life-time hero,

Dr. Suess who keeps helping us think and laugh at our reflections mirror.

One the last page, in his last words, he so profoundly said,

A message to me that is my life's meaning in my head...

"UNLESS someone like you cares a whole awful lot,

Nothing is going to get better. It's not."

Thank you my teachers, my nature and Suess...

Without you I might just be tied still to my consumer-driven noose!

"Caring about the Earth is not republican or democratic.  It is not red or blue, we are all GREEN!"

Melissa Etheridge's acceptance speech for her Original song Oscar win last night is a perfect example of the mindset we need to embrace to make REAL CHANGE on this planet!

Great job Melissa and Al!

 

I am such a blessed woman

So very blessed indeed!

For I was born with an extraordinary amount

Of passion and intimacy!

It flows through my veins swift and set

And is my mind's compass ultimate

For when I see YOU I envision a "WE"

Together, alone... genuine and honestly

I want to bring you in

And comfort you in my arms

Bring your body to mine

To lovingly acknowledge who you are

So you know another values your presence

Here and now in this life's existence

Another that radiates upon your embrace

And adds reflection upon your face

For how you value another intimately

Is like looking in a mirror of reality

What you see is what you will deserve

And YOU are the creator of that kind of censure

When we are all reflected back to ourselves

By other's visions in which we dwell

Then humanity will shift away from selfishness

And master the compassion of true forgiveness